Hi Lorraine
I didn’t want to invade your thread but wanted you to know that you are being supported here .
Well done on the self ban ! And well done on keeping trying .

It took many years for me to stop and Im so happy that I kept on trying.

In life I too have often easily felt put down , ignored or belittled by others . I can never quite decide whether it is me being overly sensitive or people’s issues with their own insecurities, jealousy, self absorption or their need to control. I think this is more likely than people not liking you . Whatever the reason Lorraine I have learned to either walk away and ignore or challenge behaviour which brings me down.

I’m sorry that you didn’t get the support you needed at GA. I have never been to a meeting but I suspect a lot of people might be seeking support at once –
Please visit the groups here Lorraine – I love Charles groups – and maybe you will get more support there .

Keep strong . Maybe write a list of good things about u! I’m sure there are many .