well I not gambled for about 5 months and been so happy that I thought I beat this demon! Got my savings to 11 grand and thought I beat this demon once and for all! So the last 2 Saturdays I been doing little 20 pound bets on the price boost offers the bookies do on sports and won about 50 in the last couple of weeks and I found that buzz again were I,am in action and it takes the other problems you got in life off your mind when your watching a football match or horse race. So I took a grand out of my bank and thought I,am strong enough to try my system again now were I bet and lay horses as I know a few guys in bookies that gives me the odds after they go down in price but only a point ( I will take 5 to 1 but it went down to 4 to 1 about 30 seconds ago and lay it off at 9 to 2 on betfair) so I was making 40 to 60 a day on this as some horses won but if they don,t win then you don,t lose anything! So I made 300 in about 5 days and then today not one won so I thought I try to lay this fav to win a 50 and it won so I layed another one and it won and lost 100 then I layed a 3 to 1 for 100 and that won and cost me 300! So I ended up betting this 5 to 4 shot to win for 500 and it was come to the last fence clear and fell!!! I could not believe it! Ended up losing the grand I took out the bank and the 300 I won in 5 days! I would never bet 500 on a horse from my first bet but it’s like when I was chasing my head went and something took over me and I at to bet it to just get my money back! All this happened in the space of 30 minutes! I got my 10 grand target savings in the bank but I not been sleeping right and so stressed out! Why can I not stay displinced like most people would! You must thing I,am crazy betting 500 on a horse but it was like I had to get my money back and that was the only way! I can not believe what a idiot I am! Sucide thoughts have come back too! All those 5 months of no gambling and saving and done half of it in 30 minutes! Is it ever possible for a compulsive gambler to stick to his system without losing is head people? I tried so many times 5 months and failed time and time again! It’s just so weird how when I,am down something takes over me and I got to get it back asap!! Am I just a fool or is it possible to stay in control?
