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Thanks mate, I got no job ATM but got about 9000 in savings from 30 grand which I had at the beginning of the year! It’s just always on my mind but day 1 today but can,t get it out of my mind! It’s crazy as I got mates who can have a bet and lose and just walk away but not me! Why can I not be like a normal person and walk away! Am i cursed or something