Beginning to understand the term “coming to terms with guilt”.
I don’t view this as a bad thing or a trigger. I recognize it for what it is.
I have made mistakes that I can’t rectify or fix, right now. Today. But if I continue on this path, the past will become just that and I can move on with the ‘now’.
So yes. Time in recovery does matter for me. So much more than I realize.
I have this stupid t-shirt. Plain, cheap got a design of a basketball player that rubs down one side. Not sure why I bought it. I guess I need shirts.
I was going to throw it away since that was the shirt I wore during my last rendezvous with my devil. I decided to keep it. It’s nowhere special in my closet. I don’t predominately display it. But I do see it every day. I want to see it. I don’t wNt to lose the memory of anything any more.
Time. Does away from gambling. Does it matter? Of course.
Seems like it anyway. Only one way to find out for sure.