Hi there, I only joined today. Like yourself I keep asking why do I always end up after having high hopes that I’ll stop feeling like I do today after another loss. We can’t rationalise it, it’s a compulsion to bet and get that buzz. No one knows my problem so this is my only outlet, there’s nothing wrong with you, or me, we just need to find route , path or ways to deal with urges so we don’t keep falling back to square one. It won’t be easy but let’s try , just posting feels like a huge step