Has been feeling a bit better

Has been feeling a bit better as the days passed, focusing on work/study/gym and taking the view that the loss will be insignificant in the longer-term, as long as it stops here.

Last couple of days have seen an increase in the amount of thoughts urging me to win it back. That I’ll just recover the amount and then draw a line under the whole thing and be able to move on. That it would be “cleaner” that way. Increased difficulty accepting the amount lost, comparing the amount to x months of work, etc.

I’m still holding out but it’s frustrating how this seems to ebb and flow, I’d thought it was getting better.