Hey Dave,
Lists are all good but I’ve made MANY over the last 18 months, usually after a major losing session. I figured out that lists are great for turning your mood around in that moment, feel like you’re using the loss as a lesson to turn your life around…but they are almost useless for ongoing abstinence from gambling. It’s like a new years resolution…after a few weeks all that positive “change my life” energy is down the drain.
What you need to do is take proactive action to PREVENT future relapses. Have you self-excluded from ALL of your gambling avenues? Have you installed gambling blockers if you play online? Have you restricted access to money/time for gambling? Have you confided in a loved one/attended GA or looked into someone else managing your finances? These are the true steps you need to take. Lists are great, but I get the feeling you’d still prefer winning over not playing. You need to actually not want to gamble. It’s a long journey to get there, and you need to take proactive preventative measures now if you truly want to be free from gambling.