I hope you can get involved in the support groups and find encouragement and strength to live in recovery. Do you have any help for your depression? It sounds like you suffer a kind of vicious cycle – depression followed by gambling, which then probably leads you to feel more depressed? It’s good you have made the step of writing here – and I hope you will benefit from chats, the support groups and both reading and writing on this Forum.
Best wishes,
Monique