Hi Rayman,
You might not feel like talking about things right now but now is exactly the time to take action.
I’ve just skimmed down this thread, did you get excluded from those remaining casinos? Will you get excluded from where you have been gambling now? I also see that your previous relapses involved quite a lot of money; what financial barriers can you put in place? Who could hold your money for you and make you accountable for it?
How about those GA meetings that someone has mentioned?
Yes, I know your hurting. So what things can you start putting in place now so that you are less likely to repeat that pain?
It is a progressive problem so in reality the choice you have to make is whether you take some of those steps now, or later when in deeper trouble.
Keep posting and I hope the answer is now.