Great share and never a truer word spoken, I am a compulsive gambler and like you I have promised to stop hundreds off times only to keep carring on down the same destructive path, you are right my friend we have to stop because if we dont I beleive we will be in the bookies old men talking about our mansions we could have brought I believe we will be six foot under sooner then we thought!
I wish you well in your recovery and please remember there is always hope, if nothing changes then nothing changes (not my words) but so very true, keep trying and I hope you can start to build a better life for yourself, when we stop gambling it is amazing how quick things start to get better.
All the very best.
Maverick