I goofed

I made a mistake in the gamble free days. I am nine days casino free! I’m pretty excited at this point that I have gone this long and I see it only as the beginning! I am attepmting to work on things with my fiance, but it seems that we are not yet having as much success as I would like to at this point.
It seems like we are arguing more and more. It seems as if at times she wouldn’t care if I walked out the door and it hurts me deeply. I am committed to her, to us and to myself. I hope that she will in turn feel the same way that I do and accept me for who I am, that and her forgiveness is all that I can ask for.