Well another milestone passes! Day 200 is here! Thank you so much to Charles for his initial comment of “what are you doing differently” and making me eat my words after saying the usual gambler schtick of “never again” and “can’t see myself doing it again”! You sir are a gent and have had the single most impact! Not because I want to prove you wrong, but because you are right! I needed to step my game up and came to the realisation of gamble and bad things will happen to you, even if you are winning. Thanks to Pea for your encouragement also!
So day 200 is upon me and not a single urge to bet even though I could right now. That is how I know I won’t! My determination and constantly watching for Mr Gamble to try and get into my life again means he won’t! I still use blockers but having been released into the wilderness on occasions such as pub meets or whatever, I still won’t do it!
So much more to lose in life and the quick fix of dopamine is no longer worth it! I draw that feeling from family, friends, leisure activities that are character building and fulfilling, not destructive. Debt down to an all time low, only six months more to go for my own personal debt. Gambling debt was kicked into touch four months ago. If anything, it put my life in perspective and managed to sort things out.
Don’t gamble, it’s poison.
Take care all!