I know it’s not much but it’s a great start. Maybe today has been my most tempting day for no real reason. There’s isn’t even a remote chance that I will give into it, it turns out that the one negative thing that people have said about me is ” that I can be incredibly stubborn”. Somehow this negative trait has turned into a very positive advantage for me. My stubbornness serves me well when I challenge myself. In this last week I’ve played golf, ran, worked every hour of overtime offered, wrote some poetry lol, read a lot of forums on gambling, played tennis, planned my food for the week (never done that before), shopped for food for a week ( completely new one too), spent more time with good friends, spent some time in the garden, spent a lot of time in the bath, watched tv which never involved sport, I’ve cried a little, I’ve laughed a lot, I’ve learnt a lot of things about myself, I’ve started to like myself a little, I’ve moved myself from inside the bubble to outside the bubble, I’ve realised I’ve been a complete fool, I’ve accepted my losses, and saved a nice little sum. It’s an empowering feeling, I accept that I lost a piece of me to gambling but I’ve come back fighting and come back stronger than ever before. Whatever stage you are at in your recovery, stay strong, keep busy, keep posting and enjoy your life away from gambling. But most of all be honest and open.
