ongoing misery – u think there is only one answer

what is the point of going to a to b ,,,,,no social life, no family n destroy urself with sick gmblg…right now lost my rent, cant pay it lost it last night 750, alresdy broke as paid debt b4 rent because done like to let people down….. my birthday on 11th and paid 35 ukp for ticket to berlin so i have smething to look forward to……. now i borrwed 550 t go to berlin, but i didnt pay my rent (im a cnbt) so im gambling my last chance….
wot a dick