Thank you for sharing a little about yourself. I can see you are feeling very low just now. But already you have a very kind reply from someone who can understand something of your feelings. This illustrates the way you can connect with others who will help and support you and advise you on a better way forward.
Do tell us more about your situation, so you can get more specific help. And do make use of the Support Groups, too, where you can share in ‘real’ time.
Wishing you well and hoping to read more from you.
Best wishes,
Monique