Hi Maverick,
I am so sorry to hear about your gambling. It takes honesty and courage to admit our mistake, you have already taken your first step.
The same thing can also happen to me if I am not careful today. I am still the same imperfect person who can have incredible short memory that I cannot drink or gamble like a normal person.
At this time, nothing I say can replace a big hug, all I can say is don’t give up hope, take one baby step at a time if you must.
We seek spiritual progress and not perfection in recovery. Take care and God bless!
Kin