Vera you always make sense and thank you for your post it means alot, hope you are doing well today.
I have been very tempted today to gamble but I havent and I wont, the trigger was a person I work with…….he had a bet and won alot of money and was talking about it, I know the truth and that is if I start gambling again I cant stop and thats just me, I have to always stay away from that first bet as that is the one that opens up that door again leading to the “house of horrors”, yes I was very tempted, yes I knew my trigger and yes I stayed in recovery, “just for today I will not gamble” ” just for today I am happy”, 19 days gamble free and in all honesty it feels really good………..once I have the loan sharks off my back it will feel even better, I shouldnt say it but it is the truth and how I feel so I will “when you owe money you contemplate silly ways to get money to pay your debts off…………..If I wasnt under pressure to pay the loan sharks I know these thoughts wouldnt even enter my head” just wanted to share how certain things in life can set people of down the wrong path.
As always thankyou for listening, supporting, helping, sharing and most importantly understanding me.
Take care and my very best to each and everyone of you.
Maverick