Hey it is nice to see your posts and see you are back on track. I am so glad you didn’t take that job Mav, no amount of money is worth risking your safety.
Funny in saying that i guess as gamblers we risk our safety all the time really, mental safety, financial safety etc.
But risking life for paying back a debt nooooooo. I am glad you could put it in perspective.
Keep going Maverick, the days will pass again and you will start to feel better. Just for today remember, even break it down to hours when you need to. When you get the urge delay it, do something for an hour that occupies your mind or keeps you busy, then do it again the next hour and the urge will pass. Just saying what i do in case it helps others.
Hang in there, never give up on giving up
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