What I love about life is that we can always start again. No matter how bleak things seem, we just have to ride it out until we get next get paid and then we can start again.
Please though , ring the Samaritans and chat to them . It is free, anonymous and why not? It can only help.
You have a gambling disorder . This means you indulge in behaviour that is not good for you. So you did this …and you feel shame and disappointment , possibly fear and worry about finances.
You know what Soulsearching , probably everyone of us on here have felt like you do now at one time or another .i can speak from experience… Life does get better.
Your 12 year old daughter loves you whether you have £10million or 10p to survive on. You are her rock In life regardless of your human faults . We all mess up sometimes . Actually .we probably all mess up often ..
You can’t change yesterday. Take whatever steps you need to take to change today . Write a longer post please as we have all been there and we can all give you advice about how we got through it.