Hi Lostitall and welcome,
Well done on looking for help here.
This forum is where people arrange to meet in some of the open groups we have here. Can I suggest you copy and paste what you have posted and start a thread in the My Journal Forum? It is a busier forum and you will get a lot of support and feedback there.
Alternatively I’m here in the group at 8pm (UK Time) if you pop in and ask I will be able to move it for you.
Read the other stories in the My Journal Forum as well; you will see many stories similar to your own. You will also see the success stories, what are they doing that you can apply to your own situation.
I myself facilitate some of the groups here, click on Support Groups and you will see the full schedule. I am also a Compulsive gambler myself. As I said, I’m in the groups for the next hour and a half or so, I hope you can pop in and have a chat.
Hopefully I will see you in a group, if not this evening then soon, I also look forward to reading your progress in the My Journal Forum.