I’ve just read through your thread. Your doing very well. I’m a bit like you in a sense I just went cold turkey myself after losing just under 20k in a couple of weeks. I too have had the withdrawals and even the nightmares. It does get easier I can promise you that. But the urge will always be there. You just need to recognise the triggers and avoid them. I know what my issues are but unfortunately I can’t really avoid them full stop as I work in a bar and there’s gambling machines (my vice). It’s interesting you said your addiction started in Vegas. I actually went to Vegas once and didn’t gamble a single cent. I guess we’re all different and similar at the same time. Keep counting your days. For me personally it’s one of the main things that helps me. I’ve never gone a year without playing in my life so that is a goal I’ve set myself. If I can prove to myself I can do that, maybe I can open up to others about my problems. At the moment it’s still my secret. But I’m 8 weeks in and I’m feeling much healthier mentally. Just need my bank account to be healthier. My money was supposed to go towards my first house. At the moment that’s just a pipe dream.
Good luck in recovery.
