It’s a hard fact to take sir. I am still trying to adjust that I screwed my source of income – my own business. I have no work, no clients. Why? Because time I should have spent building the business I was gambloing? Why? We had a massive contract that ended in Jan. Since Jan I have been a wreck. I have to live with that.
I wish you all the best. Go to GA and meet others. Get blockers – DO NOT USE CREDIT CARDS TO TRY AND WIN YOUR MONEY BACK, PLEASE!!! Let it go, do not do any more damage. You are a CG like the rest of us. I couldn’t accept it 3 years ago, I refused to even though to my wife it was clear I was. I pretended to give up but gambled in secret. Then get caught, then pretend again, then get caught. Pathetic. Now it;s over I am on day 8 – only when I lost everytghing (she is leaving me, my biz is dead etc etc) can I stop. I could fall further still in terms of credit cards, but I have devided this is where it stops. This is where I take a stand. I hope you can do the same.
I lost 30K over 3 years, but I lost much more than that. That’s less than a yearly income. MOney is not so important as love and trust and I blew that.
Find where your nearest GA is and go as many times as you can. I go 3 or 4 times a week.
My heart goes out to you mate
M