Day 2………..

Relapsed this week and I do not feel guilty! It was my choice I gamble two nights in a row as the second night was coming to an end, I knew that this had to end. Even though I was winning and was feeling a very small victory in comparison to what I had lost. I knew that to keep going would be to destroy myself. So I walked out and reminded myself how many great things I have going for me. And that I didn’t want to stuff it up, after all I deserve to be happy.

Its very hard not going back after you win because you feel that rush and excitement. Today was a bad day and I almost found myself their. I don’t feel strong for resisting just foolish for even having such a crazy idea.

Thanks for listening.