Great job redirecting toward something else. Expressing your emotion, and deciding to watch a movie. Bravo!
I guess for us CG’s it’s hard to feel flat, but all people feel flat sometimes and it’s perfectly ok. After a time you will feel something else. It’s the way humans are, emotions go through highs and lows and sometimes for no apparent reason. I think CG’s forget about that sometimes and either think the lows won’t go away without a gamble, or that it’s not normal to be low, so a gamble is needed to prop us back up right away, artificially.
Maybe we just don’t have the confidence or belief that we are capable of picking ourselves back up when we are low. Or we forget that when we’re low, we can just pick up the phone and tell someone about it, which usually does the trick.
Gambling addiction creates these false walls that (we believe) are impossible to break through. In reality it’s just the addiction that tricks us into thinking there are walls but the walls don’t really exist.
Anyway, great job and give yourself a mental pat on the back!