I have just been reading through your story and want to encourage you to stay strong as you move forward and get into rehab. You write with great clarity about the struggles you face and are able to receive and use good suggestions from others. (I thought you got some great ideas from Velvet, as well as Butchugly.)
Keep using the support and you can look forward to better experiences in your future. I would just reiterate that gambling with any money you have will NOT solve anything. Keep resisting that old way of thinking and let your mind open more and more to different ways of meeting life’s challenges.
All the best,
Monique