Wow, almost 365 days way to go mate that is freaking incredible. I am totally envious of you at this point, longest I have been clean for was almost 8 months and that was last year in May (some time close to that). And how I have lived in regret every since accumulating over 22,000 in debt in the space of a month. You may feel like you are weak and far from where you want to be financially but that is far from the truth. Think about it you haven’t gambled in the past 351 days! That is almost a whole year, that totally blows my mind. You may be financially and emotionally struggling it could be worse, you could be gambling and feeding the one thing that in the past has destroyed you.
I am so proud of you and so encouraged by this thread.
I am 10 weeks clean and every time I get paid, I think “Izzi, you stupid girl, your pay has to go towards that stupid loan!” Hopefully that is going to deter me for the rest of my life, as it is literally draining everything I have. It could be much worse, I could be gambling and be waking up each day stressed, frustrated, depressed, worried and thinking of ways to manipulate situations so I can get money to cg just so I can live with myself.
Don’t sell yourself short and enjoy the new phone you have worked hard for it.