Had a close moment the other day. I was feeling down after a fall out with the lady. I was bombarded with offers online for free money for signing up to a certain betting site. I made it as far as filling in a profile but buckled when I had to put in my credit card details. If it accepted me without that I’m sure I’d be gambling away right now, pissing away 47 weeks hard work. It’s definitely been hard at the moment. I’ve mentioned before that there’s a new bandit at work. I’m just drawn towards people playing it like a moth to a flame. I’m constantly encouraging people to go for it. Dry gambling I believe it’s called. It’s not good for me, but it’s the best I can allow myself. Even after so long it’s still so hard to resist. Do people that have been off for years still get the urges I wonder? Probably. I’m probably too weak to completely rid myself of all temptation, but all I can do is try and avoid slipping up one day at a time.
I just bought a new phone today as well. More expense. Need to be more careful to save now. It was a luxury item I didn’t really need. But I’ve not really spent anything on me for a while.
Bye for now guys.
