Hey Adam
Great post. I am really struggling at the moment with the chaos that my gambling has caused. The truth is the longer we go without the gamble, the harder it gets as we will always have to remind ourselves what we are: CGs. We can never have one bet again. I have met so many recovering CGs who went years without a gamble and convinnced themselves they were cured, so they could gamble responsibly again. It usually comes crashing down on our heads really quickly. I am only on day 8 and now I have to deal with the wreckage that is my life.
You are still young and you have a job. Gambling is no way of life. The odd bet for most people is fine. I know I cannot do that anymore.
Keep posting mate, keep us informed. How are you feeling? I love reading your posts.
All my love and strength.