Had to get my bike fixed today. New tyre, inner tube, brake cable and break pads. £47 in total. Not as bad as I was expecting, but still, it’s fifty quid I didn’t really wanna part with. Spent plenty of time today thinking about ways to get my money back. Obviously gambling always at the forfront of any ideas. Something else popped back into my head that I hadn’t thought about for a while. When I was gambling frequently throughout the years, I always had one rule. Never go under £10,000 in my life savings. After both my grandparents died I was left £10,000 in their joint will to give me a good start later in life. I always said I’d never touch that money. But somewhere in the last couple of months, I was so desperately hooked on the chase that I totally forgot I was pissing all over their memory. I don’t believe in God or the afterlife, so I’m happy knowing they’re not looking down on me with great disappointment. Although they probably should be…
When will it get easier?
