Cool post, I remember you from last year, on at the same time as me. It sounds like you are trying to tame the beast instead of get off. Fair play, that’s your call. You did describe how you spotted amounts were going up. Fair play. I couldn’t do that I cannot control it. Even if I think I am in control, that’s the addiction and that allows it to explode.
Your post made me smile, because recovery is personal for all of us. I hope what you are doing works for you. 😉