I don’t want anyone to take this the wrong way, but when I read of people having big wins it makes me really anxious. Why couldn’t I have the big win? Could I have walked away with it? That is where my head is at the moment – could I have a big win then stop? How much is big enough?
The truth is, that that is not the problem. The problem with gambling for me has been how much it eats my time when I gamble. How I think about when I can play again, how can I keep it secret, how can I play better etc etc. This is very faulty thinking and I need to remind myself I want a like without any gambling at all. Because if I did win big I wouldn’t want to stop, and if I lose, I will have to chase it back and will probably not succeed this time.
I feel very sad I never had the big wins that people talk about, but it is true that these big wins made people gamble more, so maybe I should be grateful?
Thanks