Hi tiki, I think everyone in here gets what you are saying. We have all been there. The first days are so difficult when you wonder if you will ever see your was above water again; when the stress of juggling money and trying to survive is overwhelming; when the regret and the guilt fill us with self hatred. Things do improve amazingly quickly once we stop gambling. Things soon fall back into place and we find ourselves looking forward to simple pleasures once again.
I enjoyed reading your poetry. I think Vera ‘s idea is brilliant. How therapeutic would it be do have your own works published? What a great new focus in life!
Keep posting Tiki and keep strong in your battle against this addiction!!