Hi Jansdad,
It’s never easy to tell someone but there is one way I know that can help.
I am sure that your partner, like my family, has heard it all before? All the promises, some meant some not, all the “never agains” etc. There is no reason for them to believe them now either. What we can do tho is not just present the problem; we can show them what we are going to do to deal with it. Financial accountability, self exclusion, show them this site or that we are getting to GA meetings etc.
The actions that will help us stop gambling are the same actions that will help start rebuild the trust of those around us. the same actions that might make family etc think “Hey, maybe he means it this time.”
Well done on 2 days but it sounds like your brain is already playing tricks on you?
“I made a deal with myself. If I gamble again I will tell my wife.”
Why give yourself permission to gamble again before taking some steps that you know will help?
Keep posting.