Thank you Bettie and thank

Thank you Bettie and thank you Velvet!
I do believe I woke up the beast. Yesterday, I surfed the web for future trips to distant casinos. I then read both your posts and went back and read my entire thread. I can’t go back to those days. I am seeing progress in my thoughts and healthier ways of coping. I want to be gamble free. I want to stay gamble free. That one ticket reset some of my thinking and I was planning, planning again. That scares me. I don’t have the money to go on a trip, but what about when I do?
I know I will not gamble today or tomorrow. But what about next month? Today is enough I guess, just worry about today.