Last day at my office and I am glad to see the end of that! I was virtually ignored all day. The people in the office there are some of the mmost miserable people I have ever known.
The sales staff and field staff all were very sweet, and sorry to see me go, one even brought me lunch. I should probably focus on that. But it is very hard not to take it personally when you work with a group as small as ours and only one of them can bring themselves to say a proper goodbye. I guess they are as happy to see the back of me as I am them.
I look forward to a new chance with a new set of people. These last 2 1/2 years have taught me that some people just want to be miserable and there is nothing I can do to help that. That is a very hard lesson learned.
I would very happily take myself to the casino tonight. It just feels like that would set me straight. I want to celebrate my new job and celebrate the end of my old one. I want to run to the slots to bury the very hurtful day I just had.
Instead, my husband is working late, my son is out with friends, and my daughter is at my mother’s for dinner. I am home alone and have no plans. Why didn’t I pick up some wine when I was at the store? Gambling and alcohol won’t help, I know this,,,but this is my journal and if I’m not honest here then what is the point?
Arrrggghh!
