Hello most of you wont remember me. Its been a while since I last wrote anything on here. But I do read the forum often and get email alerts of different posts. For myself I have come out of a very very dark place. I was almost at the edge and then stepped back and chose life. Have not gambled and am rebuilding my life.
Im soon to leave England and start afresh in a new Country near my son. Have a business now that is mobile so I can earn and travel. On that I feel so lucky. My debt are sky high but wont get any bigger. I am going of the grid for a while to really allow full acceptance of my new life. I miss thrill of the casinos but not the sick depressive feelings that followed. And I really hope I have the courage and mindset to keep on this path. Gambling always lurks in one form or another ready to pounce. But I can see now that without it so many other things are possible.
They are a few people here I feel really bad about not keeping contact with. People who really did support me. I want to reach out to them again and soon. They know who they are. My silence was not personal …. just had to go underground to really get to grips with my life.
Have traveled to Denmark a few times to see my son and going again this month with him as he here this week to be with me. Its a liberating feeling being able to do simple things like buy him a flight ticket without worrying if I can afford to get him from the airport or how I would feed him.
Depression has left me …. it shows this mental illness can be beaten. Gambling has not left me and never will but I choose to live with that and just not indulge.
Just want to say hope my wretched story of Rags to Riches and back to Skid Row and then recovery can give some hope to some of you here. I know from what I have read how hard many of you battle here. Cliche I know but as I have said before If I can do this …. then everyone can.
My real name if I have not said it before is Dino. I am no longer JohnNobody.