(((P))) I am sorry that you are going through this hell right now, as to me it is the only way to describe the despair, self loathing that a compulsive gambler goes through after a gambling binge. Keep posting how you feel and just get it out. Go to your counsellor and let it all out. You will start to feel better day by day. You cant change the past, but it is in the past, it’s time to look forward. WTG on 10 days gamble free, that is you moving forward. Keep thinking about all the days you would have gambled if you had not been here working recovery. I wish I could give you a big hug and sit and have coffee with you and tell you that you are a wonderful and awesome person. You look after your little family by yourself. I want you to write down what you would say to someone else who was going through what you are going through right now, and then read it back to yourself. Show compassion and caring to yourself Sweet Pea as that is what you deserve. You don’t deserve the horrible things you are saying to yourself. I know you will get there (((P)))
