Day 5

To be honest I’m not much of a crier, something happened to me emotionally where i turned into this block of ice.. it just never melted, from someone who was pretty much a marshmallow i became an ice brick. For Four days i have cried. I am all over the place emotionally.. wanting to die one minute thinking I’m ok the next, crying, blubbering.. emotional breakdown is here.. its all due to my relapse, its hard after doing so well… to be back here, to be at a worse point than before.. I dont know, i just let the tears roll, cant really stop them.. I look forward to a day now when i dont feel tormented by my own self..

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