Hi Brave68,
Thanks a lot for your message. Your words mean a lot but unfortunately, my life is different and it is really not easy. I am sure you would have heard the same statement from many people but trust me, i am really cursed n honestly, my only aim is to clear my huge debts and kill myself on the very same day. There is no change to it. I am not writing this to gain your sympathy but life has been a hell. I regret every second i live.. its not just abt gambling, i lost every single important person, love, frnds, family, my social status, every single thing that i was proud of.. i really became a zero from hero.. It would be a blessing if i die tonight and am ready for that.. My only wish is that i die in an accident, so that i would get the insurance money using which some part of my debts would get cleared.. so there is less burden on my family… . I shall start my story soon, which would surely make u feel that the right decision for me is to disappear from this world. I was searching for painless suicides and gambling suicidal stories and i found this story of icanbeatthis which is similar to my story in terms of compulsive gambling. I am sorry if my words are rude but it is the fact and Dont worry abt me as i won’t kill myself until i payback my debts..
Do u know where icanbeatthis is now and what happened after her 7th day? its been 1.8 years since this was posted. so was she able to control herself. i am really keen to know abt her.