Hello K: Let me tell you, you are a much braver soul than I. Shutter Island??? You’d have to drag my cold and rigid body into that theatre. You wouldn’t catch me otherwise. Anyway, hope you survived without too much embarassment.
Thank you for your lovely post on my thread, and I’m sorry I’ve taken a bit of time to get back to you. It’s a busy time for me with my sister here (I will explain that relationship another time). You are absolutely right about my husband being inconsiderate. He’s being an absolute donkey about my recovery. But I’ve decided to try and live with it. That, in itself, worries me. I’m afraid that I’ll leave him to his devices and then carry on with my life and eventually find someone else who will be more considerate. I really would prefer that things don’t go that way, I value my family greatly, but I’m tired of explaining things to him.
I find your dream most interesting. I’m sure there is all kinds of deep and hidden meaning in it. I’m certainly no dream expert, but the drowning and then the nakedness, sounds like a triumph over your struggle and then rebirth. That’s what I imagine when I read it. Or maybe the nakedness is vulnerability, which would make sense with all your recent soul-searching.
K, the one thing I have learned about mindful living is that life isn’t all smiles and joy. I’m learning that if we accept and just be with the sad, mad, frustrated and hard times, we grow so much in wisdom and are happier for them. Don’t put so much pressure on yourself to be happy for everyone around you. Let yourself feel what you must … joyful Kathryn is always there and will be back. She is just growing wiser. Once again, I’m no expert, but I believe that this is a pivotal part of your recovery. One in which you are peeling away a thick layer of that protective shell you’ve been carrying around. I believe it will give you deeper insight into why you gambled and it will help you to make peace with some old demons.
Wow … that was so deep, I can’t find my way to the surface, LOL!! Gotta go … psycho busy day with kids projects today. We’re incredibly behind on everything.
Talk soon.
Lotsa love.
RGThis moment is all we really have. Be happy in it.
