well I can say that I’ve been resting up this past week and the majority of the house is sorted and freshly painted or scrubbed. It does feel good Sad to finally have things as I can see them. I tried not to drive myself crazy but every time I looked as something that was neglected I could see how it aught to be. As my disabilities make it difficult for me to do a lot of cleaning I’ve purged a lot of the things in my home. If I don’t love it or need it it is gone! Makes it easier to keep things tidy. I always made things too big in my own mind. I would almost get paralyzed with the thoughts of what needed to be done. Sometimes I’d get stuck on one thing and because I couldn’t do it, nothing else would get done either. I was given advice here about breaking things down into small manageable pieces. I try and do that now. Also, I make a list of things to be done, but I don’t pressure myself to do everything. If there is one really scary or difficult task , I challenge myself to do that first. Then the other little jobs seem to fall into place. Gradually over the past 4 years since I stopped gambling things have been dealt with. I do have to admit it has been challenging though.
Sad, thank you for sharing your thoughts and your feelings. I’ll have to check out those online courses myself. So much self improving to do and so little time to get there I find. I think those thoughts too. A lot of the slogans I’ve learned at GA seem to be running through my head when it comes to my relationship. What will be different this time? Nothing changes if nothing changes. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result. Oh dear!
Hope everyone has a good gamble free 24. Thanks for always checking in on me P!
take care,
Laura