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Re: Woke up wishing I was dead today

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bettie
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Hi Guys,
Well it’s Friday. Long day but no longer than my off day. I wanted to try to workout this morning but didn’t sleep well. Big storms rolling through kept me awake.
Nice chatting with you RG.
Autumn if you are around start a thread. Sad to say we need some "new blood" to energize this site. At one time tons of people posted and now-well since the issue that happened here last year it’s just not the same.
Vera I didn’t mean to chase you off your thread. I was just struck with you words about feeling like doing certain things might make you "hit" a jackpot. See thats the surrender thing. Accepting the fact that CG’s can NEVER win because we can not physicaly walk away. We get that "mental freeze" that make us unrational and incapable of leaving with a "win" or keeping one. It that notion that "HAS TO BE SMASHED"!
There is no "win" that would ever be bigger than my Addiction. I know that.
bettie