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Re: Woke up wishing I was dead today

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bettie
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Hi Guys,
Thanks for posting Crystal.
Just back from physical Therapy. This will be my last appointment until I talk to the ortopedic. The therapist said depending on the size and location of the tear recovery from that type of surgery is 6-12……MONTHS~ Yikes! I asked her how fast would I go back to work she said 6-12 weeks. She said therapy would not cure my arm-if I chose not to do surgery it would be pain management and limitations on my activity. Well I will have to see what the dr says.
Just some thoughts I shared with a friend last week. We were talking about yet another common element with CG’s- a history of abuse. I wonder, some of us have had abusive mothers but were good mom’s ourselves. I think we compulsive gamble to in some way continue the abuse we suffered at the hands of people who were supost to protect us. Kind of sounds logical. At some level we were "bad" and since out abuser was out of the picure to inflict the punishment we punish ourselves for all our "sins"-real and imagined.
Food for thought.
bettie