Originally posted by bettie
Franklar,
The same thing that is wrong with you is what is wrong with me. Do you have gambling only friends? Do you want to go when you’re happy? Sad? Upset? lonely? Job stinks? Stress? the list is endless. I hate the feeling,panic attacks that kept me up last night. I stayed online all day today. I didn’t go to work and I am a mess. But I did come to realize some truth today.
1. I am not alone.
2. I am not worthless.
3. Staying home won’t kill me but driving home drunk from the casino might.
4. I will NEVER get back the money I blew, most of which was not even mine. I pray forgiveness for that and need to stop justifing that they should not have given me that credit.
5. I can do anything I truly put my mind to. I was killing myself with food and I have lost over 100lbs, no diet, no gym membership. I spent enough time on "diets" to know how to eat. I can workout with a tape. Likewise, I can take all these "free" tools and put them to work. I had to stop making excuses and kidding myself to loose the weight. I will recover from this doing the same thing. I work my eating daily and will need to work the gambling addiction the same way.
6. Take ownership for your mistakes.
Don’t give up! Someone is thinking about you and is worried about you tonight. Lean on that love. Like me, I have to learn to love myself too.
Wow-Pretty profound thoughts on my day one. Almost two years later how many of these actions have I taken to heart?
Lots of gambling thoughts running through my head. I have to get busy tonight, maybe go to a meeting because my brain wants to gamble-destress-and we all know that doesn’t work. IT WILL ONLY MAKE IT WORSE!
just sick of everything-
bettie