Originally posted by bettie
Hi Guys,
P, Laura, Vera, the list is endless. I feel your love, i really do. Too bad I can’t channel that love into love for myself.
I am ashamed to admit that I did just exactly what I shouldn’t do. I tried to escape into the casino and as usual it solved nothing.
I am sorry for my slip but truth be told I want to go again. It is as I always thought it would be, I miss having some place to run to when I want to escape.
There are better ways to deal with life besides running to the casino, I know that. I have to work harder, I have to want recovery more than I do, I have to want a better life, a different life than the one I’ve been living because this one is leading to destruction. I am scared to leave the "known" for the "unknown". that little nagging voice in my head tells me it will never be better, nothing and no one is waiting for you.
But i am a gambler, why not take the chance for something better?
bettie
It’s one thing to know where you want to go-it’s another thing entirely to have the Wisdom to get there….
Looking for the Wisdom
Hello,
My name is Bettie-Greatful Recovering Compulsive Gambler, last day gambled 8-18-2010.
The post above is from 8-19-2010, the day after the last day I gambled. So filled with pitty and remorse, so
sorry to post that I blew it yet again.
How things have changed!
The 12 GA Promises
We will be amazed before we are half way through. (I am amazed every day)
We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. (I see things more clearly now)
We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. ( If not for the past I would not be here now)
We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace.(I am calm when i used to be fearful)
No matter how far down the scale we have gone we will see how our experience can benefit others. (I freely share my story)
The feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. ( I am quite productive and talented)
We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. ( I strive to do the right thing)
Self-seeking will slip away. (I do things for others because i want to-i don’t seek out rewards)
Our whole attitude and outlook towards life will change. ( I have value)
Fear of people and economic insecurity will leave us. ( I have all that I need)
We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. ( I am more mature )
We will suddenly realize that GoD is doing for us that we could not do for ourselves. (AMEN)
Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us – sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly.
They will always materialise if we work for them.
To all my cyber friends, my success is your success. If not for the suport and encouragement from you all I am quite sure that I would be celebrating my "one year" Today!
They say in GA that the group loves you until you can love yourself, and then they love you more! I believe the same is true for all the folks here.
Thank you all!
Much love and peace
"bettie"
It’s one thing to know where you want to go-it’s another thing entirely to have the Wisdom to get there….Looking for the Wisdom