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Re: Woke up wishing I was dead today

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bettie
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Hi Guys,
Thank you all for the support! Up early, didn’t finish cleaning Laura so I can’t help u out! My brother invited me for dinner, something i would never do on a "boat" night, so I hung out with him instead!
I have plans today with my friend to go thrift shopping. I bought a suit for $4 last week and it was a hit. She always asks how I find these deals so I thought I would show her. She is kind of a prude so this should be fun.
My AA friend called yesterday and wanted to know why I had not been to GA yet. I told her I had not yet found the time. she said yea but u found time to gamble. True, but I could do that 24/7 and GA has limited times. She doesn’t believe me so i told her to look at the site and call, I’ve done both.Wed and Thurs are really the only good times for me.
I am just now wanting to explore that option. Wanted it during the "crisis" in Feb, too upset to go. Now I need to make the time. I am enjoying the "honeymoon" period of banning and am not having big urges now which is great. I need the skills to prevent the next binge. it’s like dieting, to be successful you must plan ahead and I am smart enough to know that. But I am loving the "honeymoon"!
Kin, u are sounding better! Stick with your plan. You are stronger than u give yourself credit for!
Salina, the story of me and my ex husband is unusual. Most Ex’s don’t get along like we do but it did take years to get there. We both had to grow up, we were both babies when we married. If I called him right now with a problem he would be here and if I could help him out with something I would. We did see each other when he was between wives and he had proposed to me between wife 2 & 3. I told him been there, done that! The things I didn’t like about him haven’t changed much and I didn’t feel like getting another divorce. lol!
P,FG, Katheryn, thanks for the words of wisdom!
Hope to chat a little now.
be well,
bettie