Hi Guys,
This is not the message I thought I would be writing tonight. I was out with my sister helping her with an event she helps with monthly. Long story short, we were talking about money problems and I told her I was getting help with mine. She asked "mental help"? I said yes and she said "with gambling?" I broke down and said yes. She said she was glad and I told her I didn;t want to burden her, she has so much on her plate right now. My support friend called to check on me and we talked. Now this story should end in a success story right? Remember, this is my story so don’t be to suprised when I tell you I made an excuse to my sister to leave and went to the casino, where I’m not banned! I Blew It! And the funny part is the urge hit and knowing I was so close I just went for it. I hate that casino. I can’t say I even enjoyed one moment of it yet I stayed.(and my sister will know I lied to her because I used my card there and she is on my account!)
Lost the fight last nite, spent $$ that had a better place to go, covering my butt tomorrow but now have to call my friend and make a date to ban there now to. Why would anyone go and waste money someplace they don’t even like?
I have the binge hangover, spent most of the day covered in a blanket, eating Easter candy, with a pounding head and sick stomach!
I am sorry. I’m sure I’ve dissapointed all of you rooting for me and supporting me.
Like I said, I lost the fight, this time, but the war is only just starting!
Too sad to chat now, dissapointed in myself! Monday, day 1.
bettie
