Thanks for your post FG! I blew it tonight and gambled! I am using destruactive behavior to punish myself for my sucky life! I came home today because my Mom had a cardiologist appointment which I took her to and to get a chest xray. I got no thank you, just a terrible attitude. When I got her home she kicked me out of her house and told me she was through with me. She threw things at me. She lost it and I don’t know why. She said horrible things to me. I am broken. I need to fix a few things around here and I am seriously thinking about selling my house and moving. It’s no excuse for gambling. I put that on myself. I had a choice. I feel all alone. I feel like my Mom needs help with her anger issues but I have no support from my Sister. I don’t want to become angry and bitter like my Mom. This can’t continue. Everytime she has a outburst, a piece of me dies. This stressful situation is changing me and not for the good. I feel hopeless right now!
