Thanks Carole or your post! I don’t know how to judge my grieving process? I know that everyone is different. Thank you for saying I have done well dealing with my Husband’s death. I think that I am hard on myself and expect a lot. It is nice to hear someone say that I am doing alright. When I think of my Husband, the sadness is lessening and I think of the happier times. I still do miss him a lot. Some days are worse than others. I know it will get better. Well, I worked out this morning and then dug 2 holes and planted shrubs for my Mother. Honestly, she is really declining physically and mentally. I know that it is part of the aging process but I am a little worried with her mental state. She is really having a hard time expressing herself verbally and acts disoriented sometimes. There is a reason why I moved here. Maybe it is to be close by her so I can keep a eye on her. I came home and put together my garden tool organizer. I had a moment today. I had bid on EBAY (first time) and won a vintage jewelry lot. There were 2 compacts (face powder) in the lot. My Sister has a collection of these. I mailed them to her today with a note, saying that I would like to see her sometime when she is here visiting Mom. We haven’t talked in over 1 year, since she disrespected me 2 days after the death of my Husband. I have been thinking of her a lot lately and I decided to reach out to her. So, we will see what happens. I am realistic and I know that she may just blow me off. Our relationship obviously needs a lot of work. But I am willing to go there is she is. I meet this lady at the bank today. We have seen each other several other places in town. She introduced herself and we talked. She gave me her cell number. We kind of hit it off. I know if I would put myself out there more with volunteering, group outings and clubs, I would meet interesting people. I am working on it!!!!
