Hiden liar

There are many ways that people lie each day, and at least yours is just to yourself. You need to find the strength to stop just as if you were a drug addict or alcoholic. I, myself, am the same as you but find strength each day to live my otherwise productive life and keep on trying to fight this disease. That is what this is, a disease of the mind. You are not evil or bad, you just need to stop the behaviour that is tearing your life apart. They say that gambling hurts no one. That is not true. It is hurting you and in turn, hurting those things in your life that you care about. The only one that can change the direction that you are going is you. You sound like you are at the point where you need to make a plan. Share it with us and we can all help.